Happy Birthday Mummy!!

Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to mummy
Happy birthday to you!!

May GOD bless you.
Stay healthy and pretty always!!
Thanks for taking good care of me and educating me.
Love you!!
Muacks!!

Mom

For some reason, today feels so difficult and exhausting
I hold my pillow closer as I sit alone in my room
I fidget with my phone as my heart
For some reason feels empty today
The suddenly ringing phone surprises me
I hear your voice, asking me if I ate today
Although at times, they annoyed me, today those words feel different
And all the forgotten promises I've made come flooding back to me

I will become a warm hearted person
I will become a person that puts others first
I will fulfill the wishes of your love
The person who I share my dreams with
The one who used to comb my hair, I think of my mom

Although at times, I hurt you because of my wrong decisions
You quietly watched over me from afar
Although I'm still a young and clumsy child
I think I understand now
The meaning of your silent prayers

I will become a warm hearted person
I will become a person that puts others first
I will fulfill the wishes of your love
The person who I share my dreams with
The one who used to comb my hair, I think of my mom

What should I do? My heart is still so small
If I let go of your hand, I'm not sure if I can make it without you
I don't think I'm ready yet
And I'm scared

I will become a wise daughter
Give me courage
No matter where I go, I will be a daughter you can be proud of
I will fulfill the wishes of your love
With all the love that you have shown me
I will have a warm heart
I was too shy to express this to you clearly
Mom, I truly love you

The lyrics appear in here again.
Was watching KJE chocolate show.
They invited SNSD and set up a surprise meeting for seohyun and her mom.
She was just 18 and have to be far away from home...
As an artist, the very-packed-schedules makes her can't go back home to have a look her mom.

I thought of myself.
I left home to Cyber when I was 18.
I was just an 18 years old girl, and in the following few years, I'll be living in this busy and complicated city, mom and dad worried a lot.

The more days I have been here, the more I wish I could get back to my home.
I miss my dad my mom and my brother so much.

Today afternoon, I can't open up the screen of my laptop.
I was so scared.
If my dad was here, he would help me to fix it.
But he wasn't here.
I ran to CFC's computer shop, and that stupid fellow told me he can't fix it.
I went back home and tried to break the thingy that was locking it.

23rd is my mom's birthday..
This is the second year I can't celebrate with her...
I wanna go back home!!

PS: We're getting closer. It's a good thing I guess?

moody

moody because of that song?

Don't think so.
Most probably it's because of what you've said.
Joke is fine, but you must know the limit.

How can you say someone make friends around just to take advantage?
Think about it, what if people say that to you.
That's the thing I hate the most about people and so I never act in that way.
I treat all of you with my true heart and that's what you said?
Not sure if you're joking or not, but it sounds so like you MEAN it.

PS: It's a stupid misunderstandings. Sorry for misunderstanding you.

My friend, YOU

I'm sure it will be hurtful if I say it out.
And I can't keep it to myself, I feel very san foo.

That's why I'm telling her.
If you heard about that, then you should heard I said, it's ok, I can still take it too.
I don't want to always quarrel or point out the mistake each and everytime because I know that I did mistakes too and you also forgive and forget.
As long as it's not that big deal, I'll just say it out to my close friend yet forget about it.

Not talking bad about you behind you, I just need someone to listen to me.
She is my close friend, so do you, but I can't tell you, so I tell her.

Since you heard about it, think need not me to say it again.
I really don't want to.

And just tell me what that you can't stand of me.
I'll listen and think about it.

I know everyone did something for a reason.
If you not gonna tell me, I won't understand and will continue misjudge you in this way.
So just let me know.

I really don't like to be in this kind of situation.
I want my friends to feel free to tell me whatever they want to.

As I posted in MSN, I'm a good listener, but ain't a good speaker.
I don't know how to express myself.

~XoXo~

Thinking about....

I know everyone have their own personality and attitude and I know we need be understanding and also tolerate.

But sometimes it's really hard to understand and tolerate, especially when they did something which is too much or too hard to be understood/accept.

People who are selfish, always think only for themselves. Theirs are important but others are shit. Not worth. Their thoughts must be respect and accept, but others are just nonsense. Theirs words must be heard but others are just like bullshit.
Yeah, people living in this world are all selfish, but not to that extend.
People with that kind of suck attitudes we call them "PRINCESS/PRINCE sickness".

People who leave their friends alone when they have new friends. When they find new friends or friends who have SOMETHING in common, they can't remember who support them through their ups and downs anymore. They are like lost their memory about that and only see those who are in front of them. Stick to them 24/7, what they say are also reasonable, correct. "Shoe brushing" This kind of people, they don't deserve anything form anyone. Never remember good deeds that people did for them. Never appreciate.

People who FAKE all the time. Their friend won't know what he/she's planning to do You'll get shocked with what they did or how is their relationship lives when you know about it. Who knows what they DID behind you. They may poke you with a knife on your back at anytime. And that time only you realize that they are this kinda people. Duo face people, change their opinion once people around them go against them without thinking the reason. They always lost their direction and own point of view in this kinda situation.

People who never trust their friend. Think that their friend will use them, will betray them. Blame people around them about their OWN mistakes. That is so stupid. Think of what kind of benefits you might offer people in order to attract them to use you before you judge they are using you. Don't think yourself as so important. Not anymore.

I ain't a perfect person too, but at least the 4 things of the above are what I didn't do until today.
If you want to make friends with people around you, those are the things that you must throw away firstly.

Sometimes, I close my eyes, close my ears.

Understand, accept, tolerate.
We won't know what's gonna happen next.
Cherish your everyday and everyone around you.
Stop complaining.
Think of what you own right now, they are the gifts for what you did previously.

PS: We are always together, but sometimes I feel that we ain't that close actually. Barrier between us maybe? Or it hasn't invite them in?