Mom

For some reason, today feels so difficult and exhausting
I hold my pillow closer as I sit alone in my room
I fidget with my phone as my heart
For some reason feels empty today
The suddenly ringing phone surprises me
I hear your voice, asking me if I ate today
Although at times, they annoyed me, today those words feel different
And all the forgotten promises I've made come flooding back to me

I will become a warm hearted person
I will become a person that puts others first
I will fulfill the wishes of your love
The person who I share my dreams with
The one who used to comb my hair, I think of my mom

Although at times, I hurt you because of my wrong decisions
You quietly watched over me from afar
Although I'm still a young and clumsy child
I think I understand now
The meaning of your silent prayers

I will become a warm hearted person
I will become a person that puts others first
I will fulfill the wishes of your love
The person who I share my dreams with
The one who used to comb my hair, I think of my mom

What should I do? My heart is still so small
If I let go of your hand, I'm not sure if I can make it without you
I don't think I'm ready yet
And I'm scared

I will become a wise daughter
Give me courage
No matter where I go, I will be a daughter you can be proud of
I will fulfill the wishes of your love
With all the love that you have shown me
I will have a warm heart
I was too shy to express this to you clearly
Mom, I truly love you

The lyrics appear in here again.
Was watching KJE chocolate show.
They invited SNSD and set up a surprise meeting for seohyun and her mom.
She was just 18 and have to be far away from home...
As an artist, the very-packed-schedules makes her can't go back home to have a look her mom.

I thought of myself.
I left home to Cyber when I was 18.
I was just an 18 years old girl, and in the following few years, I'll be living in this busy and complicated city, mom and dad worried a lot.

The more days I have been here, the more I wish I could get back to my home.
I miss my dad my mom and my brother so much.

Today afternoon, I can't open up the screen of my laptop.
I was so scared.
If my dad was here, he would help me to fix it.
But he wasn't here.
I ran to CFC's computer shop, and that stupid fellow told me he can't fix it.
I went back home and tried to break the thingy that was locking it.

23rd is my mom's birthday..
This is the second year I can't celebrate with her...
I wanna go back home!!

PS: We're getting closer. It's a good thing I guess?