Is it i'm not been forgived yet?

I know, maybe the way i speak hurts you all...
Even make some of you refused to come back...
Althougt i'd apologize, but seems you never forgive me...
It's my fault, i shouldn't been so rude to you all....
I shouldn't add in any comment about that incident...
Sorry again for hurting you all..
Although all said nevermind, but i know, in your hearts, i'm still wrong, unable to been forgived...
I can't force anyone to do anything..
i'm just trying to let harmony lives in there but maybe the method was wrong...
Or maybe i'm too busybody...
Or maybe i'm useless because can't solve it in a peaceful way...
I never want to hurt anyone, but i hurt everyone...
Helpless..
Hopeless..